As I reflect upon my life, I realize that the road behind me is much longer than the road before me. Since the age of nineteen, I have given my heart and life to spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Yet after all these years, I still find myself asking the same question:
“Lord, why did You choose me?”
I have never considered myself a great preacher. In fact, after hearing me preach, my grandfather once told me, “You are not a preacher; you are an exhorter.”
According to him, a preacher would pound the pulpit, raise his voice, and shout his message. I did not meet those qualifications then, and I still do not. I have never depended upon volume, personality, or showmanship. I have simply tried to speak from my heart and point people toward Jesus Christ.
Perhaps my grandfather was right. Maybe I am more of an exhorter than a preacher. An exhorter encourages people to examine their hearts, search the Scriptures, draw closer to God, and remain faithful. If that is what the Lord has called me to do, then I am thankful for the calling.
I do not belong to a large denomination. I pastor an independent Quaker church in a small rural Indiana community of about 1,800 people. I have no connections with powerful religious organizations. I am not associated with an influential Bible college or seminary. I do not have a large staff, a television program, or wealthy supporters promoting my ministry.
In short, I have no influence or connections with those who have influence.
So why would the Lord choose me?
Sixteen years ago, I began writing a blog. Writing did not come easily. I struggled with spelling, grammar, punctuation, sentence structure, and all the other mechanics of putting my thoughts into words. Someone once offered to edit my blog, but I declined. I said that I would learn and try to do better.
I am still learning.
There have been times when I wondered whether anyone would want to read what I had written. I am just a country preacher sharing the thoughts that the Lord has placed upon my heart. Yet today, that little blog is being read around the world.
It is read in several Muslim countries. It reaches every nation in South America except Peru. Thousands of people read it daily in Russia, China, and the United States. People living in places I may never visit are reading the words of a country preacher from a small Indiana town.
Yesterday, the blog received 149,671 views in a single day.
When I saw that number, I was overwhelmed. I could only ask, “Lord, why?”
Why would anyone want to read what I have to say? Why would the words of an unknown country preacher travel into countries that I will never see? Why would God open a door that I could never have opened for myself?
The answer is not found in me. It is found in Jesus Christ.
The Apostle Paul wrote:
“But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;
And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:
That no flesh should glory in his presence.”
—1 Corinthians 1:27–29, KJV
God does not always choose those whom the world considers qualified. He chooses ordinary people who are willing to obey Him. He does not need our influence, connections, wealth, or reputation. He only asks that we surrender what we have and allow Him to use it.
When Jesus fed the five thousand, He began with a little boy’s lunch—five barley loaves and two small fishes. That was not enough to feed the multitude, but when the boy placed it in the hands of Jesus, the Lord multiplied it.
Perhaps that is what God has done with this blog. I gave Him my few loaves and fishes—my thoughts, experiences, convictions, and imperfect words. He has carried them farther than I ever could.
My main purpose in writing has always been to keep Jesus Christ at the center of life. Whether I am writing about religion, politics, world events, Bible prophecy, personal struggles, or random thoughts, I want Christ to remain foremost.
Paul declared:
“For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified.”
—1 Corinthians 2:2, KJV
I do not write because I believe I have all the answers. I certainly do not expect everyone to agree with me. There are subjects upon which sincere Christians may reach different conclusions. That is all right. I do not share my thoughts merely to argue, create controversy, or prove that I am right.
I write to encourage people to open their Bibles and search the Scriptures for themselves.
The people of Berea were commended because:
“They received the word with all readiness of mind, and searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so.”
—Acts 17:11, KJV
Please do not believe something simply because I wrote it. Do not accept my conclusions without examining the Word of God. Read the Scriptures. Pray for understanding. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you into truth.
If something I write causes you to open your Bible, think more deeply, pray more earnestly, or draw closer to Jesus Christ, then the writing has accomplished its purpose.
I do not know why the Lord has allowed this little blog to reach so many people. I cannot explain why almost 150,000 views came in one day. I know it was not because of my writing ability, influence, or connections.
It was the Lord.
Jesus said:
“I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.”
—John 15:5, KJV
Without Him, I can do nothing. Every open door, every reader, and every life touched belongs to Him.
I am deeply thankful to everyone who takes the time to read and share these messages. I may never know your names or meet you in this life, but I pray that something you read will encourage your heart and point you toward Jesus Christ.
As the road before me grows shorter, I feel an even greater urgency to remain faithful. I want to use whatever time the Lord gives me to tell people that Jesus saves, that His grace is sufficient, and that no one is beyond the reach of His mercy.
Why would the Lord choose me?
I still do not know.
But I am thankful that He did.
My prayer is not that people will remember the country preacher who wrote these words. My prayer is that they will remember Jesus Christ—the One who died for our sins, rose from the grave, and offers everlasting life to everyone who believes.
“He must increase, but I must decrease.”
—John 3:30, KJV
To God alone belongs all the glory.